Invisible Net (2023)
I started this drawing because of discomfort. It described an internal problem.
As a procrastinator, I scheduled my time to force myself to get rid of it. It turned out to be effective indeed, and everything could be ticked off one by one under management. Meanwhile, there was a 75% perfection threshold in my head, and I was already trying very hard to get the 100% down to the 75% so that material could be turned in or presented on time. However, I realized that this 75% threshold in my head was getting higher and higher, and thus the check boxes and 75% were fighting.
In this painting, I described an uncomfortable feeling, as if I was sleeping with my eyes open, as if I was getting stuck in a huge, sticky, soft but sharp net. This net was enlarged during finals or deadlines. I flipped one of them open and saw the next net waiting for me.